Happy Fourth of July! Raining now and I am so thankful for the reminder to slow down and take it in. I'm gonna be talking about loss and Heaven, so if either is not for you- this entry is not for you! I know if I don't write this now I'll lose it..
A few years ago my Nana Logan passed away, among other family members before and after her that I still miss. Last night, before bed I saw that a person I used to know passed and I felt really heavy after reading her FB page. Like most people I think of death only when I'm confronted with it.
I started thinking about all the things I don't understand about death and the afterlife. There is a part of me that knows there is a Heaven and a part of me that really really cannot wrap my head around the concept. In my thoughts I found comfort in thinking one thing: that Heaven might have Facebook!
It sounds silly and probably a little crazy, but hear me out. The worse thing I can think of is not seeing my people anymore or getting to the afterlife alone. It just feels scary to me and I refuse to believe that life just ends here and now. That I'll roam Heaven alone and scared just doesn't make me warm and fuzzy.
So I started thinking that if Heaven had FB maybe it's not so bad. Instead of birthdays Heaven FB tells you who passed/will soon to pass. Tells you who you are connected to and how so like a mutual friend thing but you know, for the dead. Lastly, I hope if it does I hope Heaven's FB let's those that were alone on earth connect with someone-like a Heaven concierge.
My hope is that when I pass I'm greeted by my loved ones. I hope that when my Nana made it to Heaven my dad, neice and other family members greeted her at the Gates with a smile. I pray that in our passings the "People You May Know" function led her to someone she trusted. I pray that when I pass the library in Heaven throws a party and I get to connect with my people again.
I make no apologies for my hope that God sees us scared and comforts us. Or that at almost 29 I am still scared to death of leaving this life. Live now, love now, DO IT NOW while you can. When you pray tonight pray your loved ones run into my Nana Lula Logan, she'll take great care of them. #RIP #HappyFourth #HeavenlyFacebook #BorrowSeason
*Had to re-edit due to confidentiality. Every story is not.mine to tell, my deepest apologies.
A few years ago my Nana Logan passed away, among other family members before and after her that I still miss. Last night, before bed I saw that a person I used to know passed and I felt really heavy after reading her FB page. Like most people I think of death only when I'm confronted with it.
I started thinking about all the things I don't understand about death and the afterlife. There is a part of me that knows there is a Heaven and a part of me that really really cannot wrap my head around the concept. In my thoughts I found comfort in thinking one thing: that Heaven might have Facebook!
It sounds silly and probably a little crazy, but hear me out. The worse thing I can think of is not seeing my people anymore or getting to the afterlife alone. It just feels scary to me and I refuse to believe that life just ends here and now. That I'll roam Heaven alone and scared just doesn't make me warm and fuzzy.
So I started thinking that if Heaven had FB maybe it's not so bad. Instead of birthdays Heaven FB tells you who passed/will soon to pass. Tells you who you are connected to and how so like a mutual friend thing but you know, for the dead. Lastly, I hope if it does I hope Heaven's FB let's those that were alone on earth connect with someone-like a Heaven concierge.
My hope is that when I pass I'm greeted by my loved ones. I hope that when my Nana made it to Heaven my dad, neice and other family members greeted her at the Gates with a smile. I pray that in our passings the "People You May Know" function led her to someone she trusted. I pray that when I pass the library in Heaven throws a party and I get to connect with my people again.
I make no apologies for my hope that God sees us scared and comforts us. Or that at almost 29 I am still scared to death of leaving this life. Live now, love now, DO IT NOW while you can. When you pray tonight pray your loved ones run into my Nana Lula Logan, she'll take great care of them. #RIP #HappyFourth #HeavenlyFacebook #BorrowSeason
*Had to re-edit due to confidentiality. Every story is not.mine to tell, my deepest apologies.