It's raining...it's not pouring, but it'll do for tonight. I've been waiting for this all day! Sorry for your limp hair, cancelled plans and wet clothes but I'm loving it.
Today, I did one of my least favorite things: I shut up when I wanted to talk. When I wanted so badly to defend myself and explain I instead made a choice to just be quiet.
I talk so much because I love being engaged with people and a good conversation, that's what I think anyway. Really though I spend a fair amount of time trying to get someone else to believe something and usually it's something about me. I've gotten so good at defending myself that I preemptively answer 17 unasked (is that a real word??) questions. It's tiring, so today I didn't.
I didn't fight with anyone, I didn't yell or feel aggravated. I just shut the hell up. It was so peaceful in my head and I think I know why. First off, my mind is usually an incredibly loud place. There's a lot going on up there and at 28 I still do not do a great job of quieting my mind down. Silence is an often "noisy" time for me, strangely enough. Another reason it's usually so loud in my head it's because after a lot of convos I spend time dissecting them, answering and reanswering my own questions. Defending myself to....myself? When I made the choice not to speak I also made the choice not to fight/chase all those thoughts and my whole body was thankful.
So tonight I'll be enjoying the rain and the quiet. I hope your Friday was just as peaceful! Talk soon. #ThreeCheersForQuiet #ChillOut
Today, I did one of my least favorite things: I shut up when I wanted to talk. When I wanted so badly to defend myself and explain I instead made a choice to just be quiet.
I talk so much because I love being engaged with people and a good conversation, that's what I think anyway. Really though I spend a fair amount of time trying to get someone else to believe something and usually it's something about me. I've gotten so good at defending myself that I preemptively answer 17 unasked (is that a real word??) questions. It's tiring, so today I didn't.
I didn't fight with anyone, I didn't yell or feel aggravated. I just shut the hell up. It was so peaceful in my head and I think I know why. First off, my mind is usually an incredibly loud place. There's a lot going on up there and at 28 I still do not do a great job of quieting my mind down. Silence is an often "noisy" time for me, strangely enough. Another reason it's usually so loud in my head it's because after a lot of convos I spend time dissecting them, answering and reanswering my own questions. Defending myself to....myself? When I made the choice not to speak I also made the choice not to fight/chase all those thoughts and my whole body was thankful.
So tonight I'll be enjoying the rain and the quiet. I hope your Friday was just as peaceful! Talk soon. #ThreeCheersForQuiet #ChillOut