Sorry people, I really don't think Spring is coming lol. I'm still rocking my winter coat, making winter jokes and drinking hot chocolate. I'm so over it! What about you? Are you one of those people who loves winter? If so, maybe you can invite it to stay at your house and leave the rest of us alone lol
Today was especially trying for me! By trying I mean I spent more of it than I would've trying to get back to my Zen place. I'm actually writing this so early/late because I was so tired I knocked out around 11pm..That's like 8pm on CocoLand lol.
Anywho, as someone who spent a lot more time making decisions based in emotion today was an exercise in ignoring them. Not because I don't find them useful, but because I just don't have the time to live like that anymore. I never did, but this time around I have a real desire to do better. So today when my emotions were knocking on the front door and my intelligence was at the back I couldn't decide on a door!
So I was back and forth most of the day. Worried that what I wanted to do/expectations of what I should do and what I was doing/realistically able to do were not the same thing. In one case there was little I could do, because I'm literally doing the best that I can. Trust me, if nothing else I'm no slacker. The pressure to make what feels like mini miracles happen can be stressful and frustrating! I try to keep in mind that if I do the best I can than that's the best that I can do.
In another situation I agreed to do something because I didn't want to upset someone else. Scratch that, I didn't want someone upset with me about my choice. So instead of saying "no" I agreed to it! Not a good idea, at all. I love doing things because I want to, because I feel comfortable and helpful. I'm not saying there aren't things that I do that fall outside those lines, I just prefer not to do things out of obligation.
Obligation is tricky because in the end my obligation is to myself. That may sound selfish,but it's the truth. That goes for you too, you need to be your first priority. If you don't believe that think about a time you did something for someone you didn't want to do. Can you remember how tainted that experience felt?? I do and I try to stay away from that.An unhappy me, is going to make for an unhappy "we", trust me. So sitting with the discomfort of having to go back on my word is really headache inducing.
In the end, I made the best decisions I could based on my intelligence. My emotions were not appropriate gauges to use for these situations because they were counter productive to my goals. Making that decision was DRAINING, but it was the best one for me!
I'm proud of myself because I did end up saying "no" and not agreeing just because. I also took several steps to handle my emotions in a respectful and appropriate manner. You have to be able to say "Is this a good choice for all of me?". For me, if it's not it's generally a decision based in emotion. When I can get to an answer that speaks to more of me that's usually one based on intelligence. I'm working on making more decisions with less guilt. When I make intelligence based decisions I Ferrell a little less guilty because I can say "I weighed my options and v this makes the most sense." At the end of some days you just have to be happy with your effort. Today I was happy with mine!!
Hope you had a better day and an even better tomorrow! Bedtime for this girl for real blue! Sleep well, talk tomorrow. #BorrowSeason
Today was especially trying for me! By trying I mean I spent more of it than I would've trying to get back to my Zen place. I'm actually writing this so early/late because I was so tired I knocked out around 11pm..That's like 8pm on CocoLand lol.
Anywho, as someone who spent a lot more time making decisions based in emotion today was an exercise in ignoring them. Not because I don't find them useful, but because I just don't have the time to live like that anymore. I never did, but this time around I have a real desire to do better. So today when my emotions were knocking on the front door and my intelligence was at the back I couldn't decide on a door!
So I was back and forth most of the day. Worried that what I wanted to do/expectations of what I should do and what I was doing/realistically able to do were not the same thing. In one case there was little I could do, because I'm literally doing the best that I can. Trust me, if nothing else I'm no slacker. The pressure to make what feels like mini miracles happen can be stressful and frustrating! I try to keep in mind that if I do the best I can than that's the best that I can do.
In another situation I agreed to do something because I didn't want to upset someone else. Scratch that, I didn't want someone upset with me about my choice. So instead of saying "no" I agreed to it! Not a good idea, at all. I love doing things because I want to, because I feel comfortable and helpful. I'm not saying there aren't things that I do that fall outside those lines, I just prefer not to do things out of obligation.
Obligation is tricky because in the end my obligation is to myself. That may sound selfish,but it's the truth. That goes for you too, you need to be your first priority. If you don't believe that think about a time you did something for someone you didn't want to do. Can you remember how tainted that experience felt?? I do and I try to stay away from that.An unhappy me, is going to make for an unhappy "we", trust me. So sitting with the discomfort of having to go back on my word is really headache inducing.
In the end, I made the best decisions I could based on my intelligence. My emotions were not appropriate gauges to use for these situations because they were counter productive to my goals. Making that decision was DRAINING, but it was the best one for me!
I'm proud of myself because I did end up saying "no" and not agreeing just because. I also took several steps to handle my emotions in a respectful and appropriate manner. You have to be able to say "Is this a good choice for all of me?". For me, if it's not it's generally a decision based in emotion. When I can get to an answer that speaks to more of me that's usually one based on intelligence. I'm working on making more decisions with less guilt. When I make intelligence based decisions I Ferrell a little less guilty because I can say "I weighed my options and v this makes the most sense." At the end of some days you just have to be happy with your effort. Today I was happy with mine!!
Hope you had a better day and an even better tomorrow! Bedtime for this girl for real blue! Sleep well, talk tomorrow. #BorrowSeason